Midnight Rain

Rain at Night
Rain at Night (Photo credit: Cat Sidh)

Today I am lonely

 

I do not have a thought in my mind

 

but for my lonesomeness

 

I crave a fellow soul

 

I thirst for sweet passion

 

I am lonely today

 

and I act as a dead poet would

 

I weep at cherished memories

 

I sob at moments lost

 

I want to walk in midnight rain

 

let it soak me

 

let it fill

 

my empty heart.

 

I am lonely today

 

I curse life and wish to die

 

if only I never dreamed,

 

desired,

 

loved.

 

Oh cruel life you may walk past me,

 

But do not look back at the shadow you missed

 

for I no more need you

 

than a  Brahman needs proof of God.

 

I am alone today

 

But the only desired midnight rain falls

 

from my short-sighted eyes.

 

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Scribbling of an old spinster

Children laugh too loud

The air is musty outside 

New cookies make me gassy 

My knees ache

I think I have a heart murmur…

That container would be great for…

The neighbors dog barks all night

I should get a cat to keep me company…

On second thought I don’t like cats…

Oh here we go again…

I hate when the sun comes up so suddenly on you, 

seems sneaky somehow…
 

Incomplete

This poem is about suicide. It is fiction and does not reflect my views on suicide. I hope I do not  offend anyone with this poem, and if I do I let me know and I’ll take it down. 🙂

 

With a bullet to the head

Shadow Wreath
Shadow Wreath (Photo credit: jeff_golden)

I end what is now

To begin what

Is unknown.

The fog of naïvety

Cloud over judgment

Only to clear away

When all is done and gone

Leaving only guilt

Regret

Hate

                    Loneliness

Fear

Sadness

All that is sought

Is not found

Shadows surround the vessel

That carried a withered soul

That was me

I cannot shout

Help

Don’t go

Don’t leave me

I changed my mind

Come back

They leave

me.

Alone with only my thoughts

Waiting

Pondering on old regrets

Broken hearts

Hurtful words

How useless now

What a waste

Why?

What was the use?

What did I achieve?

Questions old and new

Never to be answered

Soon I join the mute

Who voices and screams

Are never heard

Truly gone and forgotten

Overwhelmed

Thrust into new cages

I spend eternity living

What should have been

What could have been

I ended Incomplete.